i’m in a damned funk. and i don’t say that for emphasis, but rather because i think that satan, in all of his power, loves to hurt not directly (because that would be too obvious, even for the newest Christian), but rather in more obtuse, somewhat benign ways. i have been struggling with that for a few days. feeling the culture shock of being away from the most wonderful support group i ever had. feeling like i won’t hack it as a campus minsiter and rd. feeling insecure. feeling alone.
this is not to say that God does not use these things for His children to grow. when it becomes satan’s work is when we, as humans, forget that it can difficult times are good and perfect and from God. when we lose our trust in Him, we begin to lose our safety to satan.
that was cathartic. but i’m still not entirely sure i can convince myself yet.