So in August I'm going to see Anathallo in Pittsburgh with some CCO folks, and they're playing with a band called The Format. I decided to download one of their albums, and as I was listening to the first song, I was like "wait, this sounds remarkably familiar!"

It is. Hannah put it on an album she made me a couple months ago. It's funny (and if you read this, Hannah, a big check+ for you) that so many of the songs on that album I've come back and rediscovered in various ways – Garden State, listening to some of the songs I had on my computer, and then getting ready for this concert. But as I was listening to The First Single, I found I really liked the lyrics. So I'm putting them up here. Enjoy!

"The First Single"

I can't stand to think about a heart so big it hurts like hell
Oh my god I gave my best but for three whole years to end like this
Well do you want to fall apart? I can't stop if you cant start
Do you want to fall apart? I could if you can try to fix what I've undone
Cause I hate what I've become

You know me, oh you think you do you just don't seem to see
I've been waiting all this time to be, something I can't define
So let's cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something,
yeah something I've just got to get myself over me

I could stand to do without, all the people I have left behind
What's the point in going around when it's a straight line baby, a straight line down
So let's make a list of who we need and it's not much if anything
Let's make a list of who we need and we'll throw it away
'Cause we don't need anyone, no we don't need anyone


And I hate what I've become.

You know the night life is just not for me
'Cause all you really need are a few good friends
I don't want to go out and be on my own,
You know they started something I can't stand
You leave for the city,
Well count me out
'Cause all this time is wasted on everything I've done

[Chorus x2]

Over me
Over me

It isn't necessarily a reflection of how I feel about life – I'd like to think my life is better than a striaght line now, but it just reminds me of times we just feel out of sorts. It reminds me of the John Mayer song "Not Myself":

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind?

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when
I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?

There are moments in life, for whatever reason, that we all are not the people we percieve. I think the friends that stick around you in those times are the ones that like you, but I think the ones that love you are the ones that stick by, let you have the off time, but care enough to want to bring you through it.

…and that's enough thinking for me tonight. Much love.



  1. Helloooo Adam Anderson. You would NOT BELIEVE the shotty quality of this dial-up at my grandparents’ house. Seriously. It just took me about 20 minutes to navigate to your blog. I’m glad I did though, because this entry was definitely worth reading. It’s exciting that The Format is playing with Anathallo. That concert is seriously going to rock some socks. (This outreach does not mean that I’m done being jealous.) I wanted to call you last night to tell you that I thought of you, but not only is the internet service bad out here, the cell’s got no signal. So, anyway, I was listening to NPR (yeah, I do that…) and the entire segment was on contemporary christian rock music. I almost called in, I had a lot to say, but again, the cell phone situation…
    I thought, oh man, this would make Adam Anderson pee his pants with glee. NPR and CCM talk all at once? What joy! So that’s that.



  2. Han –

    I literally peed my pants right now.

    No I didn’t. But I did mentally.

    I hope you enjoy the CD. It’s quality, though I remembered about 3 or 4 other artists. You’ll probably get a 2nd CD… that is of course if I get the Ben Lee album.

    Talk to you soon!



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