picture 16 – malaise

It’s 12:30, and I can’t get to bed.  I think I’ve got 30 things running through my head right now, and I find it hard to settle myself sometimes.  In not too long I’ll be headed to Staff Seminar and that’ll be nice, but I feel like it’s time being taken away from everything else I have to get done.  I guess if I had to sum up how I feel, I’ll give you all this picture.  I took it two weekends ago when I was with Erika in Cleveland last.  It was gorgeous on Saturday, so we decided to head to the Lagoon and relax there.  As we sat on the bench together, this guy jumped out at me.  I liked placing the tree in the foreground in focus, as it draws your eye, but you can’t help but make out the guy in the background.  This might be perfect for me.  A beautiful day with life and joy and hope and God’s goodness, and for some reason I feel fuzzed out, hands underneath my chin, looking despondent at the water.

In case you wondered, soon after I took the photo, the man got up, looked a little happier, and walked on.  I can’t help but think it’s the same with me.