My day is fun!

8 – Wake up!
9 – Legal Political (91% on my test… I got a 75% on the last one, so I’ll take the improvement 🙂 )
10 – Breakfast
11 – Microecon (4/4 on the quiz… woot!)
12 – Study for test
1 – Study and at 1:45 down to carreer services
2 – Still at Carreer Services
3 – Rape of the Lock runthru (yeah… I’m in a play!)
4 – ROTL / Dinner
5 – Study
6 – Class, where I’ll take a test
7 – Class
8 – Class
9 – Studying for Spec Mind
10 – Study
11 – Study
12 – Bed, maybe?

Word.

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You know it has to be serious when it’s 2:30 and I’m writing LJ entries.

It’s really saddening me to see all of these people I care about so dearly go through so many problems of late. I don’t understand it at all. 4 relationships have broken up that were near and dear to me, and I see more happening. So many good people I love are falling by the wayside… God… what do you ask of me? What are you asking of them? Help us to see this, God.

Question that desires some whispers of answering…

Yeah, so I was sitting here thinking about something and am hoping to get some feedback.

If there’s a member of the opposite sex you’ve admired from afar… maybe she’s in a group you go to, or perhaps sits a few seats away from you in class, and you think that maybe, just maybe, if you had a chance to take her out, or hey… at least have a conversation with her it might be a really, really good thing… how do you go about doing it without seeing like a freak? Do you wait for some connection, maybe someone else to introduce you, or do you say “Hi there, you know, I’ve been admiring you from afar, and I’d like to see if we could enjoy the coffee thing once or twice. Whaddya say?”… or is there some middle ground? Let me know.

I think I might go out to dinner tonite. mmmm… good food! Anyway, right now I think I might head over to Hicks with some of the palsy-walsys.

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grrr…

Want to know the easiet ways to upset Adam Anderson? Here are 3 convient methods:

1) Treat the people around him like crap, and don’t really care about it.

2) Have an issue with him, and tell everyone else about it, except him.

3) If you’re in college, act like you’re still in High School, including catty arguements, lying to get your way, and basic whining because you’re day was “sucky”. This is non-applicable to High School students.

All in all, these are bona fide, sure fire ways to incite angst in Adam’s life. Many people have already discovered these secrets and are using them RIGHT NOW! So why not try them yourself?

Argh…

asked a question today on her LJ about when does confession do you any good… when is it good for the soul? I want to extend it further to when does being honest with someone become justified? I’ve come to find that people have certain issues with things I do, yet they choose to instead of tell me about it, joke to everyone else. And it’s frustrating, because I badly want to have things be good for whoever I come into contact with. It’s just who I am, but I also love to be able to become a better person everyday, and if someone doesn’t come to me and say “hey, I didn’t like the way you talked to me that day” or “hey, I don’t like the fact you play rap music”… believe me I’d say “well, what can I do to help you out?”. God puts these people in my life for a reason, y’know? He put them there so His will can be saught in a greater way. I don’t know. It’s just sad. I’m beginning to get tested again and God’s making me more than what I was, and I’m honored by that, but couldn’t people be more honest?

LJ stuff

So I looked up interested users for Grove City and found a bunch, so I decided to add them all. It should be nice to see all these people who are either at GCC or coming (those are the exciting ones…) and see how their lives are.

We’re at war. I just want it to be a righteous war and one we can look back upon 20 or 30 years from now and say “I would do it all over again”… however, I have a feeling once that next terrorist attack happens, people will be thinking “why the fruit did we get into this”.

But, fuzzah!

Anyway, I’m still trying to be better about writing in this thing, and I apologize for being as good as I could be. Life is consistent, but I’m wearing down a little bit. That’s the fun of Spring Semester – if it isn’t OB, it’s RA, it’s just being here and knowing it’s going to get warm, it’s internships, it’s relationships breaking up because Hey-no-one-wants-to-be-together-in-the-sping-for-some-reason Syndrome.

But God’s still there. That’s a reassurance. In the end, I can’t be any happier than to be able to say “Yeah, things can get rough, but I’m doing it for the glory of God”. I’d rather die 10 times for God than live once without Him.

To finish, I have to admit, Nancy outdid herself on this entry. I love how the most eloquent things can be written when people least expect it:

It’s a shocker when you’ve been desperately attempting happiness all day, ignoring eeyores all around you, making silly lists to remind yourself of what makes you smile, and focusing on that stupid “accentuate the positive” pollyana complex that rings inside your head that you just can’t shut up. My point is that it’s a shocker when you’re just sittting, squishing your toes through a soft carpet, and all of a sudden the yuckyness that you’ve been attempting to shoo away catches up with your heart at a totally inappropriate time. Shocker. When that finally occurs, and your toes are in mid-squish, you’re suddenly consumed by every thought and feeling you’ve been denying the entire day and you just want to get up and leave. Leave the room, leave the building, leave the country. Whatever.

It’s just too bad that yuckyness sometimes chooses to make it’s mean face known at times when you are powerless to do anything about it.

Just a thought

Before I go to bed, I was thinking about our RA prayer meeting tonite, and all that was said.

We stated with a popcorn prayer of just worship to God’s name, and I said “…for your love”, and the next person said “…for the cross”.

It was one of the more profound statements of the last few weeks. Like the song “Amazing love, how can it be / that you my God would die for me / Amazing love I know it’s true / that it’s my joy to honor You” or something like that. It really is amazing that anything – God, human, whatever – would sacrifice Himself for the good of the world. I suppose it’s that paternal love that you would do anything for what you’ve created. It’s a love that I can rest all of my cares and worries in. And it’s a love that once again is transforming me to be what God needs me to be, and causing me to climb mountains in His name and become something so much more than before.

Thank you God.