I just had an enriching conversation with a guy named Chris Crisby. He’s a Product Development guy that does a lot globally. I was telling him about my frustrations, and he said something really interesting. He said “It doesn’t matter where you are or what you do, you’re always going to be stuck going in circles… do something you enjoy, because if you don’t, it’s not worth it”



Meh… why the heck not? (All about me entry)

DOB:: October 14, 1982
Age:: 21
Location:: Salem, OH.
Siblings:: Ryan.
Pets:: Zeb the golden retriever, Larry the cat, and a couple mourning doves.
–If you were a … , what would you be?–
Vegetable:: Tomato.
Animal:: An eagle
Fruit:: Pineapple.
Color:: Deep, dark green.
Household Object:: Bed.
Season:: Spring.
Article of Clothing:: The nice, comfortable pajama pants you wear after a long day.
Drink:: Water.
What’s one thing that will always make you laugh?: Farting Noises.
What’s one thing that will always make you cry?: Random acts of selflessness always tear me up.
What’s one thing that will always make you angry?: Drama.
Do you laugh a lot?: All the time
Do you cry a lot?: Occasionally.
Do you get mad easily?: No.
What’s your strongest emotion right now?: Disgust.
What song brings out your strongest emotion?: Not a song… just merely stupidity.
–What’s your favorite…–
Season:: Summer.
Holiday:: Christmas.
Age:: 21.
Phrase/Quote:: “The discretion of a man makes him slow to anger, And his glory is to overlook a transgression” – Proverbs 19:11.
Thing to do:: Go out and talk about everything and nothing with good friends.
Type of Cookie:: Chocolate Chip.
Class:: I liked Environmental Science a lot.
Person in the whole wide world:: JESUS!
–If You Could–
If you could be anything you wanted (animal, object…) what would you be?: I think a bird..
If you could have any super power, what would you have?: Fly.
If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?: The fact I never played in any sports and have to work much harder to become athletic.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?: To be more at peace with the world.
If you could change one thing about your best friend, what would it be?: I don’t know if I’d change much of anything about them, except maybe I feel they need to be more accepting.
If you could be a millionaire, what would you buy?: Mutual Funds.
–A Deeper Look–
The most important thing in your life is:: My relationship with God and my responsibility to share Him with all those I encounter.
The most important person in your life is:: Jesus Christ.
Your life motto:: Do all that you can to live at peace with all.
Your best advice for someone else:: See below.
The best advice ever given to you:: My mom said to me that when I’m faced with a difficult situation, see how long it’s going to affect me – a week, a month, a year, a lifetime, whatever. After I do that, plan my emotions accordingly.
One word to describe your personality:: Caring.
–Friends and Enemies–
Who is your best friend?: Garsh. I have so many close friends. But there’s 3 people anymore I tell everything to – Lindsay, Josh, and Adam
What do you do together?: Just about everything.
What is it about this person that makes you get along so well?: That’s there’s an enjoyment to everything we all do. Sucking the marrow out of life. And there’s such a strong level of trust
How long have you known them?: Lindsay – Freshman Year, Adam – Sophomore Year, Josh – Junior Year.
Who is your worst enemy?: Myself.
What is it about this person that makes you not get along?:I just never trust myself nor to I allow myself to live up to my full potential.
How long have you known them?: 21 Years.
Your close friends (besides best friend) are:: The C-Mob, the guys on my freshman hall, the Buffaloes, all the crew back home.
Your other enemies are:: ?
–Days and Nights–
What time do you get up on weekdays?: 5:30 AM
What time do you get up on weekends?: 10 AM.
What time do you go to bed on weeknights?: 9-10 PM.
What time do you go to bed on weekends?: 12 AM.
What’s your favorite time of the day?: 5:00 a.m.
Why?: It’s at that calm, peaceful, the-world-is-just-about-to-wake-up time.
What’s your least favorite time of the day?: That hour right before dinner when you want to get something accomplished but really lack the time or the motivation.
Why?: It’s an hour wasted, usually.
What time are you most productive?: First thing when I get motivated. Usually at about this time.
Are you an early bird or a night owl?: Early bird.
–Love & All That Good Stuff–
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes.
If yes, how long have you been dating them?: 6 months June 1st
If no, do you want one?: -.
Who would you want them to be?: –
Are you sure about that?: –
Do they know you like them?: –
Are you sure about that?: -.
On a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you like this person?: 8
Do they like you back?: Yes.
Are you sure about that?: Yes.
How much time do you spend thinking about this person?: Either for good or for bad, a bit.
–On a scale of 1-10, how important is … to you?–
Music:: 10.
Friends:: 10.
Family:: 10.
Love:: 10.
Happiness:: 7.
Solitude:: 7.
Education:: 10.
Having Fun:: 9.


I heard this poem on the way to work this morning. I’ve really gotten into listening to NPR (the news on NPR is so much more rewarding). Anyway, this poem is so touching and it reminds me of the fact that we’re all moving along life at such a break-neck speed.

The Lost House

A neighbor girl went with me near the creek,
entered the new house they were building there
with studs half-covered. Alone in summer dark,
we sat together on the plywood floor.

The shy way I contrived it, my right hand
slipped insinuatingly beneath her blouse
in new maneuvers, further than I planned.
I thought we floated in the almost-house.

Afraid of what might happen, or just afraid,
I stopped. She stood and brushed the sawdust off.
Fifteen that summer, we knew we could have strayed.
Now, if I saw it in a photograph,

I couldn’t tell you where that new house stood.
One night the timbered hillside thundered down
like a dozen freight trains, crashing in a flood
that splintered walls and made the owners run.

By then I had been married and divorced.
The girl I reached for in unfinished walls
had moved away as if by nature’s course.
The house was gone. Under quiet hills

the creek had cut new banks, left silt in bars
that sprouted alder scrub. No one would know,
cruising the dead-end road beneath the stars,
how we had trespassed there so long ago.

– David Mason. © Story Line Press

Work… or something like it.

After a week and a half of being here at American Standard again, I felt obligated to comment on what is going on.

I must admit I find myself to be more useless to the company every year, not by choice, but by design. You see, I come in at 7 in the morning. All they have me doing for the entire day is going up occasionally to the floor above me and measure piping out of a kit they use to build the tubs. I’m in the second floor office – the old product development office. I shouldn’t say old, even. Built last year, it was meant to house all of product development. But corporate decided it was best to have the engineers in New Jersey, away from the product they are designing (makes sense). So now it’s a $75,000 hole-in-the-wall for interns and the leftovers from Product Development Salem. But I sit here and wait, struggling to find things to do. I want so badly to work hard, put in my eight hours and go home, but I feel that’s not going to happen this year. My friend Jon who also works here is in a similar bind where he has less to do, so he’s forced to think of things to do, much of it mundane and useless for the ultimate goal.

American Standard, Salem needs to start working. Working in labor, and working in function. Until then, I’ll be here in my purgatorial office, half way between my bosses and my work.

I suppose I shouldn’t complain. After all, many people my age are looking for a job that pays $10/hr with as little work. I’m blessed and cursed.


For the record, after get a sligtly unnerving comment today from my politics post, I want to clarify my position about the gay rights issue.

First, at least spell the president’s name right. Secondly, and more to the point, I find the way some of the moral majority and right wing members of America are treating this homosexuality issue is replusive, and in no way I feel a true refelection of the gospel. As far as I’ve ever been raised God does NOT hate “fags”. God would never use such a term to describe a piece of His loving handiwork. All homosexuality is as far as the Bible’s ever seemed to be concerned with is a sin, just how lying and stealing and killing is. Sin is greek for “missing the mark” – failing to meet God’s standards. I also like the defintion of sin as the absense of God (If God=perfect good, and Sin=bad, God can’t directly be a cause of sin. He’s always there, but if an individual makes a conscious choice to not have him in his life, well, then; he’s not gonna stop you). Anyways, I feel it’s a sin, yes. I don’t think that any person is born gay, just as I don’t know if anyone is born to steal. A little, little bit nature and A LOT of nuture. But I think God loves the person. And if God loves the person, so will I. If someone steals my car and I meet them, I might not be happy, but I certainly won’t hate them, nor will I tell them repeatedly they’re going to hell – what good does that do to show him the glories of God? None.

I don’t know. As much as I got sick watching gay and lesbian couples wed, it was compounded a lot by the so-called Christians putting up picket signs. You know what, folks? If you want to do the Lord’s work, put down your stupid signs and meet these people. All you’re doing is hiding.

Also, tangential to this, I also feel MTV has gotten waaaaay off of its purpose. It seems it’s strayed far, far away from its music roots to pursue a very liberal platform. MTV has a responsibility to help mold and guide America’s youth in a unique way – to basically play the cool older brother. And it seems instead of being open, honest, and neutral, they want to create an agenda. For instance, why was John Kerry up there asking questions, and not GWB as well? That’s sad.

Anyway, hope you all understand where I’m coming from. Peace and love.