Okay, so maybe we have an “I told you so” on the horizon

I’m finally beginning to see why there are people who choose to have their journals be “friends only”

I recieved a journal comment today from an individual I respect quite a bit who lambasted me about the way I’ve handled some of the things I’ve talked about here in my LJ. And while sure, I’ve had my moments where I’ve been not so nice to people, I’d say I try hard to keep things even – I understand people don’t like, and while I do what I can, I’m learning I’m not always going to like people back.

But I will say this – from the beginning, I promised myself I would never, ever apologize for what I said on here. From one of the first entries I said that this would be a place where I could stand up and let the anonymous hear what I needed to say. If you wanted to see it, fine; if not, that’s okay too. These are things that if people asked me I’d tell them the same exact thing – I don’t pull any sort of punches just because I’m not face to face with them. Maybe it’s an aspiration to op-ed what I want because I feel like my opinion matters.

Also, there are plenty of things I don’t reveal on this journal because they are private and they are things that don’t need to be told to everyone who comes by here. And it’s my right to pick and choose. Moreover, whatever “venting” I may do is only after much venting beyond this journal – I would never, ever write in here out of anger, because I try hard enough not to operate out of anger.

That being said, to anyone I’ve ever offended or hurt I apologize for what it did. I don’t want to hurt people, believe me

And to any of Lindsay’s family and friends who may or may not have read this journal, I’m sorry for what I put her through, intentionally or not. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the type of guy she deserves, and if I get a chance to talk to any of you in person, those will be the first words out of my mouth, believe me. I want nothing more than for everyone to move on and be happy. That’s what makes any relationship that ends worth something – the fact you can move on, learn something, and be happy. We were just two different people who tried hard to have something work that didn’t. I still respect and care for all of you, and hopefully all of you can at least remember me from way back when apparently I wasn’t so bad.

And that’s about as private as you’re ever going to get from me.

I doubt I’ll be putting very many entries in for awhile. As is typically the case at the end of the summer I’m beat and broken, tired of a lot of things, and would rather spend the time soul searching than typing.


mmmmmm good song time

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And if I, if I’d only waited
I’d not be stuck here in this hole.

Come here, oh my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And I swear I waited and waited,
I’ve got to get out of this hole

But time is on your side
It’s on your side now
Not pushing you down and all around
It’s no cause for concern

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
I know I’m dead on the surface
But I’m screaming underneath

And time is on your side
It’s on your side now
Not pushing you down and all around
It’s no cause for concern

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And I’m on my way back down again
Stood on a bridge, tied to a noose
Sick to the stomach
You can say what you mean
But it won’t change a thing
I’m sick of the secrets

Stood on the edge
Tied to a noose
You came along
And you cut me loose

You came along
And you cut me loose
You came along
And you cut me loose

It reminds me of the last couple days, and also reminds me of what’s to come.

Working until two. But I have a computer, a CD player, and an empty office.

Advantage me.


Political Rant

Okay. This is something that’s bothering me because I’ve decided to take the time to read foxnews.com this morning. And I came to this article about feminists. And while I have my own views about that (men who fight for men’s rights are chauvinist, women who fight for women’s rights are progressive), something bothered me about a particular statement from Becca Gerner, a part of NARAL: Pro-Choice America.

This echoes a statement made by Cindy on my LJ:

Abortion: For all practical purposes, Let me say I’m against. But I’m not one of those pro-lifer-everyone-who-has-one-is-going-straight-to-hell people. I belive that the mother’s right to live outweighs the fetus’. I believe that in the rare (Yes, rare: In over 1000 rapes surveyed in NYC last year, there were NO (can I emphasize ZERO, 0, None, Nil) pregnancies as a result? It has to do with the woman’s openness to the act, the body’s reflex to oversaturate with adrenaline and a whole lot of other chemical reactions that actually in almost all cases prevent conception, chemically. I don’t think abortion should be this easily obtained luxury, yet I don’t believe it should be against the law. Not totally, anyways. It’s a baby. If you want a baby, keep it. If you don’t, put it up for adoption and be more careful next time. If your life is in danger because of the pregnancy, abort it. If you’re just one of those assholes who wants an abortion because you wanted a girl and you found out el fetuso has a peniso, I think you should have to give it up for adoption and pay child support.

I agree completely. I’m tried of the feminists who want to consider it a method of convenience or luxury to have an abortion. It’s one of the most selfish and REGRESSIVE ideas I’ve ever heard. It tears at the very fiber of what life is.

Ms. Gerner, you have choices. You have the choice not to have sex. You have the choice to rise above and move for adoption. You have the choice to help many people who want children so badly but can’t.

You have a right to care about someone else but you.

And I go on!

“Women are more comfortable in the Democratic Party – they are pro-choice, where Republicans are staunchly pro-life, which they are not comfortable with,” said Brooke Taney, a painter from Manhattan. She was handing out pro-choice stickers with Marnie Weiss, who was dressed as Lady Liberty with her torch aloft, waving to passersby on Boylston Street Monday.

Not so fast, countered Nina Broz, 18, and Emily Bissonnette, 20, who stopped in Boston in the middle of a 1,300-mile anti-abortion march from Augusta, Maine, to Washington, D.C. They sported pro-life T-shirts in stark contrast to those of the NARAL volunteers around them.

Their presence also reminded passersby that being a woman did not automatically require them to sign on with the Democratic agenda.

“I think one of the things we get is they think we are women haters,” said Broz. “But we are women, look at us. We like our choices, too. But abortion is an entirely different issue.”

I’m sorry, but unless the girls I know aren’t really girls at all, they’re okay being republican, okay with being conservative, okay with being pro-life.

To all of the pro-choice women who consider it a choice, I say this – if you spent as much time working to achieve degrees, proving in all ways that you can achieve like men can as you did working on telling us it’s okay to kill your fetus when it’s convenient, I think we’d have a lot less problems.

And I feel the same way about minorities and Title IX: it comes down to self-discipline and responsibility. Affirmative action has done more to undermine minority and women’s advancement than just about anything else, by giving each group a false sense of security that they don’t have to give 100% because they get special benefits by their skin or gender. On top of that, it has served to jade the majority – white males – to further advancement of minorities and women. So they’re more upset, they dislike it more, and in the end you have more problems than you created: people who are less competent at their jobs allowed the chance over someone who was fully competent – all solely on the basis of their skin and gender.

In closing, I think employment is a free market and should be ran as such.


Arguing with the family and other joyful things

Good morning all,

I had the (I’d say) bi-annual knock-out-drag-out parents v. Adam fight last night. And while it was one in which I yelled, screamed, went outside to vent some anger and shed a tear or two, I think it came to a good conclusion.

You see, I’m not the type of guy who ever wants to tuck my tail under or just let things go. Oh no, when it comes to those arguments, I go toe-to-toe with my family and we pound things out. It all started when I was distracted from answering the phone for my mom while she was out working. I didn’t quite relay the message that I had called back, and she didn’t quite get to the person she was hoping to talk to. Anyway, that led into irresponsibility, and when I had made some plans against what my mom had wanted, it got even bigger. Then I lost it. And without going too far into the details, we discussed my irresponsibility, my arrogance (apparent), the feeling that I look at my parents with some disdain (which I don’t), the fact that my family doesn’t think it’s a good idea for me to go to graduate school right off the bat and that there more creative ways to pay for grad school, Lindsay, and finally the fact that my parents feel like I’m trying to change them. We all sort of yell and fuss at each other, until finally something happened. I just said I was sorry and I wasn’t going to try to accuse anybody of anything anymore. It’s not worth it, and I don’t want to be yelled at either. I want to be disciplined, not punished. Then we started to talk about things I could work on – things I could be doing better. And before long I felt like we had really gotten something accomplished. And since, I think things are better. For all of the strain that occurred over the last six months due to my relationships at school, it was nice to maybe get back into a semblance of what was (and, as a side note, for those of you who read this journal in an effort to see what I may say about Lindsay, shame on you. This is my personal space that people can choose to read or not. And for any of you to read this just purely to start arguments and making people feel bad shows a lack of concern for anyone but yourself and the utter sensationalism you choose to create) my family life from before all of it. And that was refreshing. It comes down to when I leave in August, which could very well be the last time I live in my house, I want to be sure it’s on good terms. I want to know that although we all have our differences and frustrations as a family, we’re dynamic enough to come back.

Other than that lovely match, things are at their usual pace. Down to single digits at work, tomorrow will be two weeks until vacation. Three and a half weeks and I’ll be in Grove City, unpacking and getting ready for RD training.

The world, shall we say, is coming full circle again.

And for her sake because she seemed disappointed last time, I’m saying hi to Kaylan and that I’ve had a chance to talk to her and get to know her better everyday and it’s been amazing. I look forward to it more and more.

There you go. You’ll get your own “Kaylan Sessions” entry later 😛


mmmmm good song time

Because I can’t always get good poems, I decided to regale you all with one of my favoite summer (and general songs).

I’ll let the sucka speak fo’ itself

“Summer Romance (Anti-Gravity Love Song)”

I’m home alone tonight.
Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight.
I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly
possible…with you.
So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we’re alone.
I think I’ve found a way for you and I to finally fly free.
When we get there, we’re gonna go far away.
Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity.
For years, I kept to myself.
Now potentialities are bound, and sleeping under my shelf.
Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy,
and we’ll be there.
So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we’re alone.
I think I’ve found the way for you and I to finally be free

Boredom Overcomes Him….

Hey all,

I’m sitting here bored out of my gourd, and figured I had some updating to do. Slobber over and enjoy:

Since Wednesday things have been fairly the same. Going to work, working out, eating, sleeping. About the same.

Sunday was completely different however. I managed to go to an Indians game with my grandmother, and what fun it was. We were situated right on the 3d base line right above the dugout, so we’re talking normal sized everyone, people heading to the dugout, little kids (and for the first time in a long while I will say annoying kids) trampling over everyone for a chance to get a ball from Ben Broussard. It was so much fun. We saw webgems, we saw the first HR of Grade Sizemore, and a great CG by Jake Westbrook. I loved it

This week is talking to people on the phone, working, running, and sleeping.

more some other time. peaceandlove


A couple things got into my head today and I figured I’d share if for only my own benefit.

When I first came to Grove City, one of the first things I looked at were the two rocks in front of Harbison chapel. Of particular significance was the one towards MAP. On it were the Men Of The Year. Awarded by the honorary, it shows the best and brightest men ever to walk on the campus of Grove City. And I said to myself then that I’d work to get to that level and perhaps be lucky enough to have my name on the rock. And here I am in my Senior year and I thought about the rock today with a certain twinge of sadness. I look at what I’ve done over the last three years and see that I could match up to the graduates last year – A member of OB, and RA and an RD, community activities, active for awhile in the Prison Ministry, Delta Rho Sigma Chaplain, and an actor in the Grove City College one acts. I mean, I’ve done it… except honoraries. My grades sit at a 3.24 – .6 below what they need to be to be thought of for ODK, the main honorary. No Operation Top Management, no nothin’. And it bothers me because the main reason I wanted to be on that rock was legacy – I wanted to feel like all I’ve been doing to try to make Grove City better would be worth it, and people would look at that rock and say “Adam Anderson, he must of done something”

Nothing scares me more than anonymity. To be one of many. To be another face in the crowd and not making a difference. It’s one of the driving factors in my life – to be and do something with this world and to encourage others to do the same. And I felt like it all culminates on a plaque on a stone in a place where everyone on the entire campus walks by.

For a moment I sat here depressed. And then I thought about it and realized how silly that all is. How arrogant of me to think that a rock makes a difference. How silly to think I can’t make a difference. I’ve always wanted to see my work in people come through, and I look at the guys on my hall last year. I look at Paul Peal and Elizabeth Dunn and see what God’s doing in them and how incredible each of them are, and think that maybe God used me in their lives. And the more I thought, the more I realized that God doesn’t want a flashy servant. Jesus speaks about the fact that when someone’s serving and giving, don’t let the left hand know what the right is doing. In the end that’s the point. To be the best servant I can be for God and for others, I can’t be aiming for the accolades, but for the joy that serving entails.

Because in the end, I’d rather have one of my guys feel I made a difference in their life than receive a thousand Man of the Year awards.

I’ve been reading more about my church, the Church of Christ and what it entails. A good overview of the movement is here: http://church-of-christ.org/who.html

And there’s a simple way to be a part of the Church of Christ outlined there too:

Hear the Gospel. “How shall they call on him whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe him whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?” (Romans 10:14).

Believe. “And without faith it is impossible to be well pleasing unto him; for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that seek after him” (Hebrews 11:6).

Repent of past sins. “The times of ignorance therefore God overlooked; but now he commandeth men that they should all everywhere repent” (Acts 17:30).

Confess Jesus as Lord. “Behold here is water; What doth hinder me to be baptized ? And Philip said, if thou believeth with all thy heart thou mayest. And he answered and said, I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God” (Acts 8:36-37).

Be baptized for the remission of sins. “And Peter said unto them, Repent ye, and be baptized everyone of you in the name of Jesus Christ unto the remission of your sins and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit” (Acts 2:38).

Live a Christian life. “Ye are an elect race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession, that ye may show forth the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light” (1 Peter 2:9).

And to me it makes a lot of sense. God forgives us, and we need to be obedient to His calling. Otherwise there’s no accountability.

But then I read about the “Church of Christ” dilemma, where it says that CoC believes that faith saves no one and really it’s the act of baptism that saves.

Baptism has been something that I’ve prayed and studied for quite awhile. As an immersed individual myself, I see the value and the need for it. At minimum it’s a pact between God and I that I have accepted Him as my Savior – an act going back to Jesus and further; and at maximum it’s a mandate set forth by our Lord. But it bothers me that people again CoC make it sound like a heresy. Because it’s not at all.

As I read more on the page, they mention Max Lucado (a CoC minister) and one of his books and the way he uses justification by faith, and I agree with ML

Here’s my take on it: I think we’re arguing the same point but in different ways. I believe that the major way to reach God is through faith and believing in Him with all of the heart, body, and soul. It’s the fundamental tenet of any true religion. That being said, I think the CoC goes further by giving a roadmap to that faith with obligations that help solidify it. Note that faith comes before baptism – in other words, if you don’t have faith, there’s no point in being baptized. “I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God” is the line every member in my church had to recite in front of the congregation. We’re baptized following.

So in the end I don’t see the fuss.


I like-a to say HOLY CRAP

Over the last month you all have given my 29 different comments. That’s 7.5% of my total comment total over only 1/36th of my total journal.

Thanks guys. I feel like people actually take interest =)

Have to go talk to my boss, so I’ll write more later. peaceandlove

Nice little quiz:

This was a nice little thing I found on one of the new GCC freshman’s LJ:

Based on the lj interests lists of those who share my more unusual interests, the interests suggestion meme thinks I might be interested in
1. reading score: 10
2. photography score: 9
3. c.s. lewis score: 8
4. christianity score: 8
5. the bible score: 7
6. singing score: 6
7. worship score: 6
8. switchfoot score: 5
9. lord of the rings score: 5
10. christ score: 5
11. jim elliot score: 5
12. starbucks score: 5
13. third day score: 5
14. camping score: 5
15. travel score: 5
16. books score: 5
17. coffee score: 5
18. california score: 5
19. sex score: 5
20. tori amos score: 4

Type your username here to find out what interests it suggests for you.

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Quick update

In my never ending quest to have interesting things to say, it took me some time to figure out today.

I think that the day-to-day stuff is okay sometimes, but I try to avoid it. After all, if you wanted to know that, you could IM me or something. Or hey, even leave me a comment asking “Adam, what’d you do today?”

We took my mom out for her birthday today to the Springfield Grille. The meal was good, the converstaion was good too, and when I looked on my whole family, it reminded me of the early scenes of the Godfather where the family is together and eating a lot of food and smiling at everything and the love is there, man. It’s there and you just eat it up.

I’m reading David Sedaris. I have “Me Talk Pretty One Day”, “Naked”, and “Dress Your Family In Courdroy and Denim” (the nice thing is you can read multiple books of his at the same time because they all are essays… no need for continuity). And I find myself enjoying every single bit. He’s got such a self-depricating wit to him, and such a grip on everyday language. So many times authors inflate their humor or drama by placing larger words than what need to be there. And while I appreciate the change-up occasionally, you can call a rose a flower and that’s okay. Sedaris can take those common simple words and mold them into something better.

He’s teaching me a lot about writing and has never met me. I like that. Not to mention writing on here and striving to actually being more than “how r u? gr8. lol i m gr8 2. ttylbilmao”. Have we become so rushed that we can not even preserve words that have been around for centuries and will be along much after we die? C’mon folks, have a little more repsect for the game here.

Anyway. That’s about it. Work tomorrow and thus the grinding away of another week of my life.

3 weeks until I’ve completed my tenure at American Standard, and 5 until I begin the end of my tenure as a GCC undergrad.


Givin’ you a ‘lil sumptins sumptins

The Buffaloes (read: Chris Nakis) have been trying to get Dave Coulier to Grove City. It cost some cash, but there was talk to it.
Now, obviously, he’ll be too popular with The Surreal Life

Alicia Keys is probably the sexiest entertainer out there. I’m probably fairly alone in that assumption, but I think the girl stands for more than her boobs.

Miles Davis makes you feel cool when you listen to him just purely because he’s so good at what he does. Think about most people who are good at what they do. You feel cool basking in it. Though he’s not always understandable.

Kind Of Blue is definitive jazz. You get the point of it, you start to understand jazz. I also have the complete Bitches Brew sessions – a seminal piece of jazz work in its own rite, but very difficult to follow and to understand. I can not concentrate when I listen to those albums. It only serves to help the listener realize that music is what you make of it and doesn’t always have to follow convention.

But Miles was a genius like that, and I don’t think we’ll see someone like that in music for a long time.

Wynton, while he’s popular, pays respect to the old school. He’s not forging like Miles did. Give it time I guess. If anyone with some extended jazz knowledge can fill me in, please do.

Anyone want to head to a jazz festival this fall? I’m itching for a good day of jazz. I’d also love to see Harry Connick, Jr.

I’m developing a business plan, and I want some feedback from the general public. I’m going through with it. If any of you would care to comment, feel free (conversation to one of the team members):

awra2001 (10:14:39 PM): Alright
awra2001 (10:14:43 PM): best way to describe it
awra2001 (10:14:49 PM): because it’s still in its baby stages
awra2001 (10:15:11 PM): At first I thought this could be a simple store – an ice cream store or whatever, that is ran by GCC student.
awra2001 (10:15:16 PM): It’s a full time operating store
awra2001 (10:15:29 PM): and it’s used as a lab for Sr. Entreprenuership majors
awra2001 (10:15:42 PM): With help from people in the community and the school
AaronFIF (10:16:05 PM): hmmm
AaronFIF (10:16:09 PM): cool idea
awra2001 (10:16:11 PM): that’s my first idea
awra2001 (10:16:24 PM): then, as I thought about it more, I thought “well, this could be something that could be used in a lot of places”
awra2001 (10:16:58 PM): So I’ve thought about taking it one step further to a N-F-P that would make its soul purpose to help college communities seed grads in their area
awra2001 (10:17:01 PM): Help gain funds
awra2001 (10:17:07 PM): And create these small companies
awra2001 (10:17:28 PM): in time, seniors would work there, and an outstanding candidate would be given the chance to run it
AaronFIF (10:17:39 PM): hmm
awra2001 (10:17:43 PM): Think of it like the son helping dad out in the store
awra2001 (10:17:59 PM): then after awhile, the son’s doing so well that dad gives him the keys and son runs it
awra2001 (10:18:01 PM): Same concept
AaronFIF (10:18:06 PM): yeah
AaronFIF (10:18:13 PM): we could run a few other store ideas also
awra2001 (10:18:15 PM): Right
AaronFIF (10:18:21 PM): small simple ones
awra2001 (10:18:30 PM): exactly
AaronFIF (10:18:31 PM): like a music or book store
AaronFIF (10:18:33 PM): diner
awra2001 (10:18:34 PM): yep
AaronFIF (10:18:34 PM): whateve
AaronFIF (10:18:36 PM): r
awra2001 (10:18:46 PM): It would be part of the marketing plans of the college town
AaronFIF (10:20:36 PM): i was thinking/praying this summer about life and my future and wanted to do the competition somehow
awra2001 (10:20:49 PM): It could start in Grove City, then after time progresses, it’d be in a maintenance phase, and would later be incorporated into another town



First, I felt obligated to try to change this sucker one more time to a different style.  I think I like this one a little more.  Clean cut and the like.

But, more to the point, I noticed as I was changing my icons that people have not been able to truly grasp “horny”.

Who the crap has ever felt as though they had horns growing out of their head… and even if that was the case, wouldn’t that be more characteristic of “evil”?

Discuss amongst yourselves.  peace and love.

In my shameless whoring of just about anything Brad Wray says because he’s funnier than just about anyone I’ve met, here’s his most recent away message. His website is http://www.bradwray.net

“…that was a good move on the part of Lance Armstrong… He’s really showing that he is on top of his Ball.” –Tour De France TV announcer who apparently forgot that Armstrong had testicular cancer and does only have one ball to be on top of.


A) Welcome to entry #200.

B) Happy birthday, LiveJournal.

However, to call a spade a spade, I didn’t write my first entry until October 7th of 2001, and didn’t actively start writing in my journal until June of 2002. All that means is I will have multiple anniversaries to celebrate.

A few stats:
Entries: 200
Date Created: July 16, 2001
Comments Posted: 120
Comments Received: 194
Community Moderator of the Grove City College Community.
26 Friends, 22 of which decided to friend me back (and I think 2 of the one that haven’t would if they even realized I was part of their list.)

It’s been a good run so far, and it’s fun to go back and to look at all I’ve done over the last 3 years. Where I was and where I am. There are some really funny entries and all of that.

Thank you, people at livejournal.

Happy birthday.

The Expanding Homosexuality Debate In My Journal (199!!!!!)

This is going to be a large entry, so if you’re up for it, get comfortable.

Anyway, for the last few weeks, the debate about homosexuality has come up a few times in my journal, and I figure if it’s going to keep coming up I may as well give it its own entry, and leave it open to anyone who cares to comment. This entry contains every single portion of an entry that dealt with homosexuality and the comments that were part of them. Enjoy.

“…First off, the gay marriage thing. Each time I see a couple from Maryland get their marriage licence, it gives me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I’m not against legally two people who want to do something like (not, however) getting into a same-sex “marriage” to enjoy the benefits of inheritance taxes and the like, but please keep it away from the moral binds of marriage. I’m sorry, but it seems crazy for me to think that two women or two men can see themselves so justly endowed to the same things ethically as my parents are. They’re not. However, I still believe this isn’t something that the national government should put an amendment on. I just feel like that’s going too far. I mean, I’m sure they could find something in the interstate commerce clause to make it justified, but I can’t see it. Keep it as a state issue, and let it work it’s way one way or the other. I just feel in the end it’s going to tear at the very moral fibers of our nation. This isn’t a small thing.”

I recived this anonymous comment:

“i don’t get why ppl are gay. i mean fags are so gross. it should be illegal to be a fag. i hope goerge bush makes that amendment thingie so fags cant have sex. they deserve it i mean God made us nongay so we should respect that. all gayz should die.”

I was really bothered by that comment, so I felt it best to state my position:


For the record, after get a slightly unnerving comment today from my politics post, I want to clarify my position about the gay rights issue.

First, at least spell the president’s name right. Secondly, and more to the point, I find the way some of the moral majority and right wing members of America are treating this homosexuality issue is repulsive, and in no way I feel a true reelection of the gospel. As far as I’ve ever been raised God does NOT hate “fags”. God would never use such a term to describe a piece of His loving handiwork. All homosexuality is as far as the Bible’s ever seemed to be concerned with is a sin, just how lying and stealing and killing is. Sin is Greek for “missing the mark” – failing to meet God’s standards. I also like the definition of sin as the absence of God (If God=perfect good, and Sin=bad, God can’t directly be a cause of sin. He’s always there, but if an individual makes a conscious choice to not have him in his life, well, then; he’s not gonna stop you). Anyways, I feel it’s a sin, yes. I don’t think that any person is born gay, just as I don’t know if anyone is born to steal. A little, little bit nature and A LOT of nurture. But I think God loves the person. And if God loves the person, so will I. If someone steals my car and I meet them, I might not be happy, but I certainly won’t hate them, nor will I tell them repeatedly they’re going to hell – what good does that do to show him the glories of God? None.

I don’t know. As much as I got sick watching gay and lesbian couples wed, it was compounded a lot by the so-called Christians putting up picket signs. You know what, folks? If you want to do the Lord’s work, put down your stupid signs and meet these people. All you’re doing is hiding.”

Here’s the most recent debate on the whole issue:

“…The Kerry/Edwards duo is about as harmless and blank as a cup of milk. They stand for what everyone else does, and what I don’t agree with isn’t going to be changed (social issues and the like… ex: people wouldn’t stand for a total legalization of gay and lesbian marriages)

I just fear GWB’s policies are so unilateral they’ve displaced us from the global community. Maybe it’s the news spin, but that’s the way I feel. I want a few years where America is trying to buddy-buddy up to everyone. The way the global economy is headed, we need many friends.”

The following debate in the comments are from Charlie, my good friend since elementary school and a liberal; my good friend Russell from Grove City, a staunch conservative; and me, fairly much conservative with liberal tendencies:

“Don’t be so sure about the whole “people wouldn’t stand gay marriage thing”. Check out this comic (warning: the owner of that journal is more liberal than I. At least, more angry of a liberal than I). In the end, people really don’t care about others’ business and happiness, so long as it doesn’t effect them.”

“Well, there’s news. We’re not a democracy. We’re a republic. Duh. Anywho, I have an opinion, and being the evil conservative that I am, I must express it.

First, FEW people in secondary school have an educated opinion about much of anything. They just form one so they look more important. A trait common amongst teenagers, and pretty much anybody (present company included).

Second, the opinion that morality isn’t other people’s business is of course, retarded. Just about everything we do affects everybody around us. We’re constructing moral values in our society to pass on to future generations whether we like it or not. It’d be nice to lock ourselves in a little box and say “I’m not hurting anybody, so I can do what I want” but it just doesn’t work that way. We’re just a giant community, and we need to watch out for each other and help each other out because we’ll have to be living with each other for quite some time, like it or not. I guess what I’m saying is, if you have two buns, don’t just eat ’em because it’s not hurting anybody. Share ’em, and help somebody…”

“A) Democratic Republic.

B) I have a tendency to agree that chances are these students aren’t quite sure what what’s going on. After all, when I was in 8th grade and we had a mock election, Ross Perot won by a landslide. And while I agree about teenagers, I don’t know if I’d go as far as to say pretty much anybody. The people who are defining success in our generation are those who are willing to strike out on their own opinions. The difference isn’t that most people don’t develop their own opinion; the difference is that most people are unwilling to stand up to them in the heat of criticism…

Anyway, that’s the middle of the road view. :)”

“My use of the word democracy was an honest mistake, and one that you made as well, as Adam pointed out.

Hmm… I never mentioned any sort of blanket morality in my post, nor my own beliefs about morality. I am not certain exactly what opinion you are calling “retarded”. What I said was that society, in general, allows other to pursue happiness so long the pursuit doesn’t directly affect them. I’ll admit this argument was flawed (recreational drugs is one example where this is not the case. However, society does allow alcohol consumption, so… *shrugs* It seems to be hit and miss), however I do believe that it is applicable in the case of gay marriage. The reason for my belief is this: Homosexuality has come much more into the open recently. It is now pretty much an accepted way of living. People hardly blink an eye at it. I don’t see too many people denouncing “Queer Eye for the Straight Guy”. How many stars have “come out of the closet” without a loss in popularity? A kid I know recently did, and received little but overwhelming support for his decision. The next step that society will take will be allowing these people the right to marriage.

I don’t exactly understand your bun example, especially as it pertains to gay marriage. Would you please elaborate?”

“Right. Honest mistakes all around (Apologies)

I did mean “Isn’t”, sorry ’bout that.

The bun example is from a song by “The Electrics” It’s pretty much just saying look out for your neighbor as well as yourself. Kinda saying “Just because you don’t think something’s not hurting anyone else, doesn’t mean you’re doing them any favors” or Do something to help, not just to avoid hurting someone. It’s kinda saying that, from my standpoint as a Christian (I know, stone me do death now) homosexuality isn’t a good thing, socially accepted or not. I mean, just because something’s popular doesn’t make it a good idea (remember slap bracelets? THOSE were a good idea, but that’s aside from the point)

And, as much as we in the Big Melting pot hate to admit it, there IS a blanket morality, and at the moment, the way I see it, it’s becoming more and more what you can get away with is just fine, rather than basing it on a standard (In my case, biblical teachings, but Torah, Koran, what have you). Homosexual marriage does seem like an inevitable step in the direction society’s going, and it may make a lot of people happy, but it’ll make just as many others unhappy (Hence, it’s not around yet), and how is it a good thing if one side gets what it wants when the other side (mine) makes another moral sacrifice?

Well, hopefully I cleared one or 2 things up, but I’m not much of a writer, I’m more of a reader. 😛
Signed, the Evil Conservative. (Buy more stuff!)”

It’s kinda saying that, from my standpoint as a Christian (I know, stone me do death now) homosexuality isn’t a good thing, socially accepted or not.

Don’t worry, Charlie and I have been best friends all the way through elementary school. If he hasn’t stoned me yet for my stand on faith, he’ll let you go on yours 🙂

ACTUALLY, I think you both have met each other freshman year when I had a bunch of friends come to the talent show for MJ. Didn’t you go to Sun Gin with us that night?

And I agree with you, and I feel that this is what this debate is ultimately coming to: the morality of a nation when it allows practices that are immoral to other sects of the nation.

Charlie, the comic you linked to shows a progression that has happened in the US. And I agree that it’s happened. What I will say from a Biblical perspective is that God never judged on race in marriage – “Red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in His sight” is a line from a Sunday School chorus I sang. But, like we talked about before, God is quite adamant about how he felt about homosexuality, and sexual perversion beyond committed heterosexual sexual relationships. And so for me, while I see what it’s getting at, can’t completely agree with its ultimate message.

But, that being said, I still don’t agree with a constitutional amendment because that isn’t the place of our government – just how it isn’t the place of the government to disallow me to disagree with the ability to marry gays.

Love the person, hate the sin. It’s that fundamental.

I think I might make this its own entry. Then open it up to WHOMEVER.”

And that brings us up to now.

So please feel free even if you’re just skipping through to just leave a message if you feel inclined. It’s interesting to see so much debate and flurry about it (I hardly ever receive double digit comments on entries). Liberal, conservative, gay, straight, whatever. Please comment.

peace and love


(I’ll probably X-Post this to GCC too)

Yesterday I had a chance to talk to an alumnus working with Smuckers (which was rated the #1 best place to work for in all of America by Forbes) and she said that there was once a college bus trip that was going to look at some colleges. Amongst the list were Yale, Harvard, Columbia, and Grove City.

Good company we’re keeping.


I love people, and I know not everyone cares to write well in their journals, and I don’t have a problem with that. But this is one of the people I share my fair town with and their first entry ever:

Saturday, July 10th, 2004
10:41 pm
my mom
my mom is s awsome at times and at other times she can be ignerent my mom is awesomebecaue she says i ca get my belly button pierced she les me have a lot of freedom she says that’s becausshe trusts me i love my mom but she sleeps to muc and doesn’t ever buy me anytig oranything like that!!!

Current Mood: confused

Don’t worry. I’m confused too.

She is only fourteen, so I’ll give her that. But still. Even still.

Also might I add that this entry is an “ALMOST MILESTONE ENTRY”

Tomorrow my journal will be 3 years old.
This is posting number 196.

Maybe I’ll write 3 more entries today and then I’ll have both milestones on one day. We’ll see if anything of any interest happens.

peace and love

Other things I’ve learned from the week

What a great last few days this has been. On Monday I decided to take the day off and head to Grove City because of the Revitalization Committee. Read on for that.

As a precursor, let me say for quite a while I had been doubting my work at Grove City. I felt for awhile the last 3 years were somewhat pointless and I was disappointed overall by it.

I got on GCC’s campus at about 11 or so, and there were two thoughts that instantly went into my mind. First, there’s construction all over the place. The president’s house is gone, the gee is no longer the gee and they reinstalled doors right in the middle of the former gee and the SAC is just about finished. Furniture for student life and learning is going in next week and it should be completely done in early August. The other thing was how lush and green everything was. I understand now more fully why people say the college is gorgeous – I saw it with a new set of eyes Monday. It was alive. And you think in May and August you get the full effect, but for some reason it was different.

After I parked I went into SAC, seeing if Student Life and Learning had moved in. On seeing nothing but walls and carpet, I headed to Crawford to see Dr. Thompson. We was in a meeting, and told me to get back to him at 3:15. I needed to head to Carnegie to Career Services to find out if there are any alumni at Smuckers. It was rated as the #1 place to work in all of America by Forbes magazine, and that makes you stand up and listen. I checked in the directory and didn’t find anyone. So, thinking I was down and out, I went to talk to Dr. Thrasher about what to do, and he tells me that indeed there’s an alum and she is the administrative assistant to the president. They’re friends, and she’s been trying to encourage recruiters to Grove City. So it seems pretty good. And also he was so encouraging, saying that he was impressed by me going to Cleveland and how that’s helpful and that I had done a good job with all of the career track stuff. It was so nice to hear that because it’s been a big part of my life since I came to GCC. He was the first guy to mentor me, and for him to say good job I felt good.

Then I ate some lunch, hung out with Clint for a little bit, and then went to see Dr. Thompson. He also was amazingly encouraging. He said how impressed he was at what I’ve been doing, and how he really sees me in Higher Education. He said I had a knack for listening and a strong desire to help people grow. He told me how excited he was to have an opportunity to mentor me (and I don’t think there are very many other good feelings than to have someone who is successful be willing to say they want to mentor you. It’s such a security.) and we’d work together to look to see my fit in graduate programs and all of that. We both commiserated the fact that it isn’t easy to find a church in Grove City (we’re both Church of Christ). At my church we have communion every Sunday, and in contrast I haven’t had communion but once at school. It’s frustrating to be sure. And he also said he wanted to have a chance to visit my church and my family and to bounce ideas off of me.

After the time with those guys it felt really good to be a Grover. I felt like I had actually done the right things, and God was reminding me of that. To have all of those people (and even Diane Gotch and company at Sherwin-Williams) say such complimentary things, I felt God reminding me I’m okay. That I’m doing good work, and that He still has the control and is guiding me.

For my money, I’ll take the Creator of the Universe leading my life.

The GCRI meeting was interesting but someone dull as we didn’t have enough to reach a quorum. Hopefully the next meeting I’ll be able to relate some more exciting things.

work is done. peace and love.

Sherwin-Williams and other things…

First off, let me say hello and apologies for those of you who may still (to my amazement) read my journal. I’ve been on shutdown break this week and consequently not around with a always-up connection. But I’m still around, always looking and hardly updating the journal and the community.

Sherwin-Williams was amazing. For those of you who don’t know, I had a chance to go shadow the HR section of the Sherwin-Williams Automotive Division. To watch these professionals doing their job was impressive. They let me watch so much and see all that goes into it. I have to say that now, HR looks like a good fit for me. No one goes into life thinking “oh geez, when I grow up, I wanna be an HR manager”. It’s not that obvious. And they touch every facet of a business in such a great way, it’s something I could really see myself doing.

Anyway, I must get to writing thank you notes as well. I’m banking on the fact that the networks I made there will prove to be beneficial in the next year or so.

Something I’m hearing more and more, and I think probably the significant thing God is showing me right now (and as is my Savior’s fashion, He has a tendency to always show me things I was stupidly blind to) is that I’m never going to be able to chance anyone. Only God and the person are ever capable of doing that. I’ve been hurt and frustrated many times over the last 3 years by a lot of the people closest to me, be they friends or people I’ve dated or whatever, and I just end up feeling that I’m going to say something or do something and they won’t hurt me or I’m not going to hurt them or whatever. Until I finally realized that they only person letting them hurt me is me. And the more time I spend thinking about it, the less anything is going to get accomplished. Eventually what it comes down to is everyone deserves the same amount of grace that God allows me – as God allows to everyone in this world. So who am I to give less grace and less understanding to someone else. It’s the constant battle to give up the life that I could lead easily and take up my cross. People I think sometimes want to equate taking up the cross as purely missions and conversion and all that. Taking up my cross, it seems, is as simple as forgiveness and kindness.

If I hear John Kerry make one more lame joke, I’m going to stop considering voting for him (there you go Charlie! I’m considering it… :P)

The Kerry/Edwards duo is about as harmless and blank as a cup of milk. They stand for what everyone else does, and what I don’t agree with isn’t going to be changed (social issues and the like… ex: people wouldn’t stand for a total legalization of gay and lesbian marriages)

I just fear GWB’s policies are so unilateral they’ve displaced us from the global community. Maybe it’s the news spin, but that’s the way I feel. I want a few years where America is trying to buddy-buddy up to everyone. The way the global economy is headed, we need many friends.

Anyway. peace and love.

July one of many

At this time next month I’ll be looking at the last week I will ever work at American Standard. It’s weird to say that. I think it’s weird too, that much like 4 years ago, I’m beginning a lot of endings right now. I guess when it rains it pours?

last year at american standard. last year of undergraduate work. last year at home. last year of not having to support myself. last year of not really caring what i look like because we all know in the business world looking good is clutch. last year on my check card.

last year probably in the youngstown ohio area in general.

and finally, it’s the beginning of the end of childhood. which is scary enough with all the other added garbage.

The couple days leading to shut down here at American Standard are wrought with so much laziness you really don’t see much work go on at all. People are so excited to be away from here that I think they forget that yes, you still have Thursday and Friday to work and yes, when you’re here there’s something to do. I watch people leave so early on Friday. It’s as though people can come in and just screw around all day, and with the dire straits the acrylics department is in, you’d figure there’d be some more dedication to the goings on. I don’t know how much I should say because it’s all rumor and you never know what’s going on, but suffice it to say there may be some big shakeups here when it comes to acrylics.

And besides, for my money I’d buy a steel tub with whirlpool jets than a piece of plastic with fiberglass on the bottom. Just not my bag.

For my shutdown I’m not sure what I’ll be doing Monday-Wednesday, but Thursday and Friday I’ll be in Cleveland working with Diane Gotch, head of the automotive HR department of Sherwin-Williams paints. I had the chance to shadow her awhile back and really enjoyed myself. There is so much cool stuff that she did – stuff that I could see myself doing. And I had a chance to look at the marketing department too, which is also up my alley. I’m really hoping this could turn into a job opportunity which would be absolutely smashing. We’ll see.

Anyway, time to “work”. peace and love.